Turning into fire

I'm not afraid anymore
Just tired

I've been thinking my entire life that all has a meaning
All happens for a reason
But now,
in that point of my life I think it's not
I think,
sometimes we don't deserve what happened to us
We don't deserve the darkness
We don't deserve the sadness under our eyes
And we definitely don't deserve the knifes on our backs

All happens for a reason,
but maybe it's not that one person told you
Maybe you just need to turn the page, and start another book
With only your name in it
With only your happiness to find
No one else's

Just you and your fucking smile

So, I'm not afraid anymore

I just see the truth behind the curtains

And I don't like it